If I knew then, what I know now, I’d do it again. Absolutely all of it.
2013 was a great ride.
Archive for December, 2013
There is a person in my semi recent past. He was the first guy I loved, let alone liked after I broke up with my ex of 18 months. We dated for 6 months this summer. He left to follow opportunities my perfect college town couldn’t give him. I’m incredibly happy for him. Judging by his facebook posts, it’s a wonderful experience for him.
He’s a fire hazard, and he comes with smoke trailing behind him and I know it. And everyone around me can see the smoke. He’s back for Christmas, and I suspect he wants to see me again.
I don’t know if I’ll see him or not. He’s bundled around all these intense emotions and while they were all worth it for our time together this summer. I don’t know if they’d be worth it for one, two nights max of marathon sex.
I have good sense, and boundries, and walls, and he can break them all down and doesn’t even know it.
friend: I got a problem…
Me: Oh
Friend: my penis. My problem with the penis. its got a different color.
I’m not sure when I became the person that people come to about weird penis problems…and I’m not sure how I feel about it.
Confession: Captain was supposed to be a one night stand. A one night stand I wasn’t even sure I wanted and was talked into by a friend.
Last night he took me home from a party with another one of his partners.
I was thinking about how he went from the one night stand I was not sure about to an important staple in my life. And I honestly, don’t know when it happened, nor do I really know why. Sometimes the universe gets it right.
Even the most broken things manage to fix themselves. Life is good.
I don’t need to be rescued. I’m a big girl, and when I get into trouble, I can get myself out. I don’t need your help, but I’m not so proud to not accept it when you offer it.
Thank you. Thank you for loving me in the way that only you can.
Kink and Other things 